In the chaos and beauty of the recalibration of my life, I created space for a vision. I have always known this vision, as glimpses caught through the thick fog of my doubts and fears.
But, it was not until I made my intentions known - proclaiming that I wanted her, this vision, with the full force of my desire; that I wanted to get twisted up with her, like mating serpents tumbling into the unknown: surrendered, unabashed, courageous - that she began to appear to me in full. It was a slow and scrumptious strip-tease. For every detail that she revealed, she wanted me to peel off a layer, too. Stories, judgments, self-perceptions, tendrils of ego all piled at my feet, until I stood naked in front of her, vulnerable but not shy.
Still, she wanted more.
She wanted me to peel back my skin and reveal to her all the tenderness of this flesh and all the places where the wounds made their mark; those child-beast wounds that nothing but yelping would assuage. So I did and I yelped.
She wanted me to push apart the muscles and show her where the contractions were held, those ancestral imprints that won’t break posture until all the rage is expelled. So I did and I raged.
Then, she wanted me to spill my blood and make an ocean of my grief, where - at last - it would be dissolved. So I did and I wept.
She wanted my bones on display like memento mori, so that I would see their porous core seeping time and fear. So I looked and I danced.
And when I had done all this, she said “Now we can begin.”
It is stripped down to my essence, that I now behold this vision.
She is a portal.
She leads to another reality, where love abounds and infinitely multiplies; where autonomous individuals stand in radical authenticity; where bodies are sovereign, decolonized, at ease.
Still, she wants more.
She wants my service and devotion, which I gladly give. And she demands much of you, too.
If you are ready, she wants all of your stories, repressed emotions and wounds to be transmuted into the vibrant and empowered wholeness of your presence and your power.
She is SOROR MYSTICA.
My mission is to serve the liberation and expansion of our innate capacity to love.
I help people release and clear trauma and the imprints of fear, guilt, shame, anger and grief that are constraining their ability to radiate authentic presence from their heart.
I work with folks who are ready to let go of limiting beliefs: stories that we tell about “the way things are” and what is possible; stories that, ultimately, perpetuate and preserve our pain and suffering.
I believe that by letting go of these internalized limiting beliefs, we reclaim our birthright in the wisdom of our bodies, the power in our pleasure and our true agency in the world. This means that we become more effective at shifting the external limiting narratives of disenfranchisement and oppression.
I see this work of personal empowerment and embodied sovereignty as an act of decolonization.
I call upon those who are ready to forge ahead into the void - that place without story - and shine their light upon their darkest, most disavowed parts. I call upon those who know that they are capable of so much more than they are currently expressing, experiencing and embodying.
I choose to work in the realm of sexual healing, because I believe that this is where the collective carries its most profound wounding - repressed, shamed and distorted sexual (life-force) energy is channelled into violence, hate and fragmentation of the individual and of the collective.
I believe that it is there, in the most scary, uncomfortable, taboo, shrouded (...and also the most powerful, mysterious and potent!) place, that we will find ourselves, each other and a new way forward: one oriented by love, not fear.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS AND TEACHERS
I am a graduate of the International School of Temple Arts (ISTA) Practitioner Training Program and a Level 2 Initiate. I am honoured to call Triambika Ma Vive, Crystal Dawn Morris, Elaine Young, Frank Mondeose, Laurie Handlers, Raffaello Manacorda and Stephanie Phillips my teachers. Their passion and integrity are my daily example and inspiration.
Oceano Salvatore Russo transmitted his Wataflow method to me in Ibiza over the course of a mystical month on the island. His gentle fluid nature opened me wholly to the wisdom of water and gave me a true initiation into flow.
Monika Nataraj's Ritual Temple Dancer teachings continue to be my portal into the divine feminine and the sacred body temple. She reminds me that our dance is our prayer.
I had the privilege of training Qi Gong and Gung Fu with Shaolin monk Shi Heng Zuan Laoshi, whose energetic mastery, power and precision are my living examples of human excellence.
I learned from many brilliant minds at the University of Toronto, where I earned a Master's in Philosophy.
My family, friends and lovers are my guides. To them, I am thankful for the joy it is to see my heart reflected in theirs.